July 2011
1 post
Looking back...
Vindicated and weary from the scorned misfortune of the worlds imperishable temptation to conciliate and appease the masses. I have become irrevocably parsimonious and although with a heavy heart I have disguised my true inhibitions and taken a step backwards. When was it that the true meaning of life became so magnificently difficult? Truly there must be an explanation that helps identify and...
May 2011
1 post
It's what I need...
Things that I’m afraid I have let slip from my fingertips somehow into the depths of the back of mind:
Music.
Workouts.
Being young.
Friends.
Days off.
Summer.
Fall.
Health.
Oh the possibilities…get it together self.
February 2011
2 posts
January 2011
7 posts
Light up...
So many things are said at the end of the day and for what? What purpose do they serve other than a closed-minded apology to ourselves for all the things we intended to do and didn’t. I runaway from failure, as it is my biggest fear, and yet I am falling so far behind because my optimistic self becomes overshadowed with the burden of excuses.
Redemption is a sick form of overcompensating...
Starting now...
I guess it’s time to lay down some hardcore goals for myself. There are so many things that I want to accomplish that I somewhat feel that I’ve wasted time talking and not doing. I am 24 not old by any means but not getting younger. It’s time that I put these plans into action!
What is to come...
Wow, the year is almost over and yet I feel compelled to do it one more justice. I’m humbled in ways that I never knew were possible, my heart was broken, and I fell…hard.
It’s absolutely amazing and beautiful the way our souls pick us up after a fall and we dust ourselves off only to fall again. A silent voice whispers into our ears “I think I can”, and suddenly...
December 2010
3 posts
things...
Looking at my apartment I see so many things that I feel blessed to have. A beautiful Christmas tree, a new tv, a playstation, a bed, towels, a dryer.
That being said whilst Jerry and I were out today we stopped by the Colin Creek Mall to pick up a Christmas Angel. I felt incredibly honored to have the opportunity to partake in such an activity but looking at all the names and ages of all...
Greatness...
The part of me that is infatuated with the idea of romanticism clings to an imaginary view of how I think the world should be, but the magic of everyday life is what you make of it. The passion that lights the fire inside of us is there because we believe in it. I write songs because it helps me to hold onto my memories. I am sharing a part of myself that even I don’t always recognize....
November 2010
1 post
Change...
Anxiety is slowly creeping in about this new job, excitement too of course. I’m not terribly comfortable with change, which is more so a feeling of habit over anything else. Change is good, at least that’s what I have to keep reminding myself. All I want from life is to live passionately through everything I do, and there is so much that I want to do. I just need to do it! Excuses...
October 2010
5 posts
believe...
Sometimes dreams unfold as if your spirit has been touched with magic. Watch in wonderment as it fills your heart with hopeless romanticism and captures that spark that will soon create the fiber of your being. What inspires you? What are you made of? Inevitability is in the everyday fabrication of life. However, unimaginable things can happen when you believe.
song idea...
I always hurt myself, then look around to place the blame on someone else.
If it was worth it to fall, I’d fall again and choose the chance to risk it all.
But then again, I’m a fool. But then again.
Too many times I’ve walked away, and felt the fear and how it feels to take the blame.
If second chances came around, I’d be the one to lock my heart and turn it down.
But...
Dear God,
We struggle, we grow weary, we grow tired. We are exhausted, we are distressed, we despair. We give up, we fall down, we let go. We cry. We are empty, we grow calm, we are ready. We wait quietly.
A small, shy truth arrives. Arrives from without and within. Arrives and is born. Simple, steady, clear. Like a mirror, like a bell, like a flame. Like rain in summer. A precious truth arrives and is...
September 2010
8 posts
just words...
Although slightly taken off guard being back in Dallas, and somewhat unhappy that there is no ocean outside of my window, I am encouraged and burnt. I am so blessed to have had that time away. Away from people, away from work, away from routine. The everyday “hustle and bustle” intimidates me. No offense to housewives that are content to cook and clean for their significant other, No...
August 2010
2 posts
the bigger picture...
This feeling of encouragement overwhelms me and now I’m simply happy, thinking of what good things will come.
Blessed by knowledge, and intermediate know how. I think I’m on to something, something new.
Open heart and Open mind, with that we see things through different eyes.
And the things we saw are better now and with new perspectives are alive somehow to comfort our inner...
July 2010
3 posts
untitled...
I miss you without a purpose, it’s like somebody stole my will to live.
Just like a distant feeling, I’m reaching out cause somewhere something has to give.
I never knew how hard I’d fallen until the day I had to let you go.
But distance is never too far, I’m searching for a way to let you know.
I love you.
We give thanks for singers. All types of singers. Popular, concert singers, and tuneless singers in the bath. Whistlers, hummers, and those who sing while they work. Singers of lullabies; singers of nonsense and small scraps of melody. Singers on branches and rooftops. Morning yodelers and evening warblers. Singers in seedy nightclubs, singers in the street; Singers in cathedrals, school halls,...
God give us rain when we expect sun.
Give us music when we expect trouble.
Give us tears when we expect breakfast.
Give us dreams when we expect a storm.
Give us a stray dog when we expect congratulations.
God play with us, turn us sideways and around.
Amen
-Leunig
June 2010
1 post
Remember Me.
Somewhere beneath the clouded sky, dreams aren’t what they used to be, but neither am I. Neither am I.
For too long I filled my head with doubt, searching for my soul to find it inside out.
All these things that never change, are suddenly a part of me. ‘Cause you were a part of me.
Wondering who is left to blame, for all these demons that are caught stealing you away.
All these...
May 2010
3 posts
blessing...
I had an epiphany this morning while running at the park. I was not put on this earth to be sad, or ungrateful. I am here to make music, and to love every one person for who they are. By every one person that includes myself. I work at a hotel, with some pretty great people. It’s trying at times, very frustrating, but I have a job. I get paid. I’m blessed. I have a car that get’s...
Count to three...
I’ve been searching forever to find what I have now. All the seconds to minutes to hours of years I’d count down.
And I promise that you’ll never lose me, but a promise is only my word. Just in case you didn’t believe me. It’s just one, two, three and I’ll be there. Every second that I have is yours, yours my dear. Just count one, two, three I’ll be with...
April 2010
3 posts
change...
Change is good. Change is something that is inevitable and should be embraced instead of feared. I won’t lie, up to this point I have feared change. Looked at it with such disdain. I understand now the importance and true meaning of the word. I have prayed about these things they weigh heavy on me and I believe the lord has answered my prayers, “change”.
I am excited for the...
“I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”
-Benjamin Button
footprints...
“LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you’d walk with me all the way.But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints.I don’t understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.”
The LORD replied:
“My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial...
March 2010
1 post
love knows not it's intent until the hour of...
it is there, that we laid your bed to rest in, beauty keeps you safe, safe within, and I know, that goodbyes are harder now. Harder because I’ve forgotten somehow what you felt like against my skin. Let tears escape without notice and for a brief try at a moment…composure….breathe in….because they do not love you the way I do. They will not miss you the way I do….so...
February 2010
4 posts
"We give thanks...
for the life and work of Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. Let us celebrate and praise all those musicians and composers who give their hands and hearts and voices to the expression of life’s mystery and joy.
Who nourish our heart in it’s yearning.
Who dignify our soul in it’s struggling.
Who harmonize our grief and gladness.
Who make melody from the fagments of choas.
Who align our...
Dear God...
I pray that Jerry and I are blessed with the right finances to afford an apartment soon. I also pray that at that time we are able to adopt ellie’s brother, I will name him charlie. If I can not adopt charlie then I pray he finds the best home ever…
Ps. I am already blessed so all this would be a bonus.
Sincerely,
K.
Fix You...
listened to this song on the new studio headphones Jerry bought…I cried.
“When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep Stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can’t replace When you love someone but it goes to waste Could...
beloved one...
Mom bought me a remembrance picture frame to put a photo of Minnie in. To some people pets are insignificant, others they are so much a part of our lives they become family. Minnie was the greatest companion that God could ever have blessed me with. I was having a hard time letting her go entirely until I read this poem written in the frame:
“If tears could build a stairway and memories...
January 2010
3 posts
Don't Go...
“Blue lights and grey faces they haunt me as I sleep. What if you were a secret from God that I just can’t keep.
I loved you, and I still do. With grace I feel you here. I’ll let go as long as you know your heart still touches mine dear.
Wait don’t go until I find my way back home. Stay. Please Stay. Stay.
Until my heart is safe.
Until my heart is safe.”
...
December 2009
2 posts
Dear Andrew...
I watched the documentary last night of Andrew McMahon’s fight to survive for his life. In 2005 he was diagnosed with Leukemia, not knowing what he was about to go through he decided to video tape the process which would later be titled “Dear Jack”. It was certainly an eyeopening visual of how difficult the disease is and just what cancer patients deal with on a daily basis. He...
just an idea...
we dont get chances just beat happiness to the ground.
and all of these faces with fake dizzy smiles turned upside down.
judge me now, don’t judge me now.
maybe in this world my heart leads me straight back to you.
but what if I’m lost do I give in at all cost only if I knew.
but maybe i tried too hard to ease the weight of your world.
facing the enemy forcing the others to prove...